I’m a Cancer ascendant. My own sensitivity is a blessing, but I keep getting lost, suppressed in this physical body. My senses make me more attuned to the subtleties in life – some of which are not so obvious to others. Being a Cancer, Gemini is in my twelfth house and Mithuna’s ability to pick things apart opens up my view of the spiritual.
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live. Maybe one of these days you can let the light in. – Sara Bareilles, Brave
I have a Vata constitution and I’m finely tuned. I forget this too easily when my body feels like a cage. It cannot handle the input, the prana, the unfiltered detail that I absorb. When I engage it, I am calm. When I am calm I control of it. When I am not in control of it, it controls me. It must be engaged – else my physical body takes the toll. I am a sensitive person. I am finely tuned. Sometimes the chaos of the world is too much for one to parse.
Pratyahara or transference. Energy is neither created, nor destroyed – just transferred from one object to another. Through another. Emotion is energy in motion. Perhaps this is more true than I had originally believed. Energy can be expressed physically, but also creatively. To express energy, to move energy, in a positive manner, is to be creative in your expression (kriya). Energy is taken in and should (best) be exerted back out into the world in positive manners, in ways in which the
Truth is maintained and best when one’s dharma is maintained. A certain amount of energy is necessary to maintain the functions of the body and mind, but the rest… the rest can be used to strengthen the body or mind of the Self or strengthen the body or mind of the Collective. Just as one would not wish to use one’s own energy to destroy oneself, one should not use one’s energy to destroy others. Ahimsa. And this, then, leads to maintenance and assurance of Satya.
For those, like me, with excess energy that is not released, it can eat away at one self. It can be released physically or mentally, best through creative measures. Emotion, again, is energy in motion. Emotion, then, is a primitive, but direct way to express one’s energy. It’s not complicated and direct, but because it is so primitive, one should find a way to remain conscious of one’s emotional releases. Negative energy expressed creates/is negative karma.
This made me understand something essential about Cancer today. Cancer is not emotional because it’s emotional. Cancer is emotional because it is so sensitive. Cancer must be emotional because emotion is essential to release the intense prana being absorbed. Cancers are not hard-shell… they are definitely soft-shell. So much is absorbed, and this energy must remain in motion. It cannot be contained. It must be expressed, felt. Cancer, then absorbs, while its opposite, Leo, emits.
While Cancer feels, exerts energy through emotion, Leo exerts energy through action. Like all other rashis, each pair being two opposite sides of the same graha, Cancer and Leo each represent the self-pair of Candra/Surya. The absorbing, emotional, prana self and the emitting, active, apana/upana self. Leo releases and Cancer contains. It may appear to a person on the outside of that Self that a Cancer ascendant, for example, has a containing shell. The shell, really, only represents what acts as both the shield that helps regulate external energy and karma like a high-security checkpoint.
Complimentary, it may also act as a blockage of outward active, physically manifested energy – indicating a preference to release energy internally instead of externally.